Drifted Apart

dedicated to someone



I don't know where or how to start
to cover the years that we spent apart
you're way out west and I'm in the east
on the phone at best small talk at least
and it breaks my heart
oh, how we've drifted apart

you and I were thick as thieves
the best of friends that could ever be
but time flies by and it's in the breeze
just a shoebox full of memories
and it breaks my heart
oh, how we've drifted apart

I'll never forget your kind brown eyes
or the fingerprints you left all over my life
still it breaks my heart
oh, how we've drifted apart
oh, how we've drifted apart
oh, how we've drifted apart


drfited apart by meaghan-smith

dont judge me

having a blog is more than just a stupid written words but it's teach me how to speak up. The ugly truth is(rool the drum please)me was nothing but a good pretender, always take a "silent hill" moment rather than "fight your mind". Maybe people look at me as a fun person who always be able to speak her mind, i fool u guys(sorry to say)I can stand and speak up everything that comes to others need not mine.

and for god shake,"a silent hill" moment was happen again (huaaaa). So let me shouting out in this blog to keep my mind healthy. I hate Miss Y at that time (just call her miss Y) she was my friend which is be there at that freakin time. Here the situation, my ex was coming to visit me, we just chatt and try to be friend. He tell me about hard relationship that my ex going through right now and i try my best to give him my advice. And Miss y ask something to my ex which is make me stroke!

ex: jadi gimana donk?(ask for relationship advice)
Y : (SAMBIL NYENGIR KUDA)lho emangnya kapan jadian sama cew ini?(menatap kearah gw)
me : (what the fuck?!!!)*diam*
Ex : tiga bulan abis putus kalau gak salah
Y : (TERTAWA PELAN)..kirain gak lama bis putus langsung jadian lg(menyeringai puas)
Me : *i got stroke*

OH MY GOD, kenapa juga Miss y menanyakan hal ini ditambah dengan seringai penuh arti? persis senyuman ala vampire ketika menangkap basah korbannya. untuk apa? just for fun kah? sama sekali gak fun!!!dia jelas-jelas menyindir aku, dan apa hak-nya untuk melakukan ini?. Heloo Miss Y, u never really there at that time which is happened one years ago. U to damn busy with your own romance remember? so darling, u dont have any right to judge me coz u dont have any clue about it.

here the things, i broke up with my ex with a damn good reason that only me and god know why, something that personally about me and him. i'm not gonna share this reason with u. Please respect this as i respect your other decision at u'r life. And because of that reason...i broke up with no regret at all. Fully blessed with my own decision. And to make it easy, even god send someone new to replace him as soon as u can see. The point is, u know nothing about the whole thing..u know nothing coz only me who feel this...this is about my life not yours...and what u got is only a piece of puzzle. So dont judge me!!!

where is your manner when u said that in front of HIM,hey...maybe he was my ex but he was my forever friend or maybe my future best friend. We totally already get over our past, our hurt and sad momment. i Dont need to open the "past box" anymore..friendship is a good words for us and i like to keep it forever.

a letter to cipit

halo cipit, where are u know? still get busy in jakarta kaH ? atw sedang berkutat dengan never-ending to-do-list pasca persiapan married? no matter what u do, i'm happy for you darling.

sumpah demi tuhan, so happy dengan berita tgl 4 desember itu. Aku bahagia semata karena ku harap kau juga bahagia sehingga mata mu yang tipis dan sipit itu bisa melebar seperti kucing persia. Jadi pertanyaannya bukan aku say, tapi kamu. Apakah kau bahagia? apakah kau senang setengah mati sehingga rasa capek pasca persiapan nikah (nantinya) hanya kau anggap angin lalu atau e'e yang ngambang di got.

Atau sebenarnya kau mengumpat dalam hati ? Atau kau ingin berontak dengan segala keabsurdan yang sudah terlanjur tercipta ? atau apa pun lah yang kau rasakan cipit, sebuah perasaan yang tak terjamah oleh siapa pun bahkan sahabat-sahabat dekat karena pada dasarnya u'r a good pretenders. Yes you are...

Sejujurnya, aku pun tidak merasakan gairah kebahagian atau semangat dari cara mu membicarakan masalah pernikahan ini. Gaya bicara mu terlalu biasa, mata mu tidak bergairah dan intonasi suara mu cenderung rendah. Kau jauh-jauh lebih semangat ketika membicarakan aneka makanan lezat yang belum sempat kita coba karena keterbatasan waktu dan biaya.haha.

sms singkat dari mu hari ini, membuat ku terdorong untuk menulis postingan ini. Di situ jelas-jelas kau menggambarkan kesedihan karena menurut mu, kami-kami ini tidak bahagia mendengar berita wedding mu. Tapi coba pikir deh say, apa pentingnya perasaannya kita. Setiap orang punya pendapat bukan. Setiap orang punya cara berekspresi. Tapi sekali lagi, apa pentingnya tentang pendapat kita, apa pentingnya kita suka atau tidak suka. Karena yang paling penting dari semua ini adalah perasaan mu cipit. Kau bahagia kita pasti bahagia. Kau senang kita pasti senang kok. Jadi demi tuhan, berhentilah bermain-main dengan pikiran-pikiran sampah mu, negatif thinking mu itu low, trust me...we happy for you. Kalau boleh berpendapatan, mungkin anak-anak lebih kepada capek terus2an mendengar tanggal yang selalu di undur. Hanya itu kok say. Dan itu bukan hal yang penting untuk di pikirkan ya cipit karena biar bagaimanapun yang menjalani ini diri mu, kami hanya penonton yang tidak memberikan pengaruh langsung.

so cipit darling, this is huge...yup wedding is a huge thing for human life. It's not easy but mission possible kok.

if u happy, so we do..